When You Are Always Trying, But Never Quite Blooming

 A soft space to rest, reflect, and reconnect with yourself. These notes are whispers — for when you are not sure what to do next, but you need to hear something real.

Sometimes, you just need someone to say: “You are right. This is hard. I get why this hurts.”

Not advice. Not a reframe. Not “look on the bright side.”

Just a hug in the form of words.

Because what no one sees is how long you have been trying.

You give ideas, energy, time, and presence. You cheer others on. You plant seeds in their gardens and celebrate their blooms. And you are proud — you are. But under that pride is a quiet ache.

Why do I always feel like I’m in third place, no matter how hard I try?

Why does something always seem to block my full bloom?

 Maybe you are not even sad — just worn out. You have been through seasons. You have reinvented, restarted, and stayed hopeful. And still, there is this invisible weight: I know I am gifted. I know I am meant for more. So why is it always just…almost?

You see others — maybe younger, maybe more resourced — finding clever ways to blend creativity with sustainability. You are happy for them. But something in you whispers, What about me? And then immediately, I should not feel this way.

But here is the truth:

You are not wrong for feeling what you feel.

You are not negative. You’re not ungrateful.

You are just deeply, deeply human.

Some seasons ask us to pause. To question. To sit with the truth that we are tired, not from doing too little, but from carrying too much for too long. Especially when it feels like we are always almost there.

And if nothing else:

Take one night to sit under the stars and whisper, “Help me see what is next.”

Not as a demand, but as a prayer.

You do not have to carry this all alone.

A Gentle Practice

For when you want to move from spinning to softening.

🌙 Reflect — Journal Prompts

Where in my life do I feel like I am always trying, but rarely arriving?

Who or what blooms because of me, and do I feel acknowledged in return?

If I stopped chasing “more,” what would I hope finds me instead

🫶 A Self-Check-In

Sit in a quiet space. Close your eyes. Breathe. Then ask yourself:

Am I tired from dreaming, or from not being seen?

🙏 A Prayer to Carry

Dear Spirit,

Help me know the difference between being still and being stuck.

Show me where my energy wants to go, and where I can rest without guilt.

Let me release the chase, and receive the clarity I need.

Remind me: I do not have to bloom fast — I just have to stay rooted.

I am listening.

I am open.

I am held.

Amen